Empty and lost.
Broken and Confused.
Things I feel. These waves of emotions,
I've got a wonderful life in the palms of my hands but I feel as though the ground is falling beneath my feet.
Dazed and wandering.
I have no direction, my intuition's crushed. I'm walking around with my eyes closed, and I feel the need to rush.
What's the rush? When lost, take the time to find a way. When broken, slowly put the pieces back together. Sometimes, all you need is time.
I need to take a serious look at my life and re-evaluate what I'm doing, and where I want to go. This feels like a bad thing, but I's imagine it's because I feel out of wack. In reality, this feeling is normal. (At least, I think it is...).
School is killing me slowly. I hate it. And the fact that I hate it is frustrating, because I love learning. I love knowledge. I just feel like I'm stuck and going no where. I know where I want to end up, but I've lost the path on how to get there. Can somebody get me a guide book? A 'University Degree for Dummies' maybe?
Sometimes, I wonder if I've ever really "had it all together."
Is that even possible?
Isn't there always something to work on? ... In a way that's cool, but in another it's depressing.
I am really looking forward to the summer. For the first time in three years I am seriously anxious for the summer months back in Kitimat. To be doing nothing in a small town is normal. To be doing nothing in a city is sad. I'm sad.
I miss my family. I miss everything familiar. I miss being able to drive a vehicle to escape to my favourite hiding places. I don't have any hiding places in the city.
I am just lost.
I miss the nature; the trees and the water. I miss how close the stars feel.
I need to quit rambling.